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11:14 PM
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It was a good book though.
Oh great it's like almost December and I've done like ZERO work... darn darn darn. And it's band fest starting on Wed. Crap I'm so stressed. Don't like the idea of having to play with all the pro bands from other schools! Just hope I don't paiseh NJ's face too much.
Ning and I offered to bring our 14-yr old cousin from KL out tomorrow, quite an accomplishment for our usual unhospitable selves. Now I'm kind of regretting we did and thinking whether I should just stay home and work.
Riiiiiight.
8:55 PM
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So excited about The Sims 2! The people actually grow up! You can manipulate your characters in many more absolutely retarded ways! Check out the website... way cool it is.
We had our second official class outing today. Haha. Don't know what to say about it. Don't think it was that bad tho' some said it was suffocating... dunno la. I think it's good that we actually tried to get along. Even though our wavelengths are so extremely varied. Have been hanging out with some of the class gals quite a lot. We should have a sleepover. Come on someone organise?
Lately I've been reading some book that my Sunday School teacher gave me something called The Purpose Driven Life. Just makes me sad when I read it and think about people around me... are we living for all the wrong things? Lately I find that I find very little pleasure in buying things... take my shoes for example. I bought a new pair of shoes quite some time ago and after the initial thrill of it I just felt guilty. Stupid... 'cos I didn't really need it. So I don't think I'm going to buy new things for some time.
Just read over my entry and it sounds like a huge contradiction. WTH. I'm lazy to change it. That's the way people's minds work- a complete ramble. Excuses.
darn.
9:37 PM
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Don't know whether I should go for the class chalet next week. My class, is, sadly, rather segregated. Not to mention the chalet is on the same days as the make-up lectures. Suppose I'll just turn up during the barbecue and eat all the food or something.
Dinner time. Then it'll be another night band prac... hopefully I can muster up some enthusiasm for catching up on work tomorrow.
5:32 PM
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Okay got to go and finish copying my Chem notes.
7:53 PM
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Why am I always so moody? One second I feel postively murderous, then I feel like smashing things against the wall and out of the window. Want to rip and tear everything I see. Then I just want to bury myself somewhere and stay there forever.
zi xiang ku zi xiang ku zi xiang ku
Then I hate myself for being so hell self-absorbed. I mean there are people who have it worse than I do right? I hate being so vulnerable. I hate being such an attention-seeking prat. Who am I to hate people like that? Aren't I like that too?
At least I didn't do too badly for my promos. It's a give and take really. A (maths), D (econs), O (physics), and F (chem). Screwed up sciences. Now I'm really torn whether I should drop chem. I actually just planned to retain 4 subs... then I talked to my mum and she actually told me to consider dropping something. I really dunno... on one hand I want to keep 4 subs 'cos I'm worried 3 subs will limit my opportunities later... but then again my chem is really really the pits... not to mention I will definitely not be having a science career in the future. Haiz. Guess I'll try and seek advice from teachers tomorrow.
I have to acquire thicker skin. Along the lines of elephant hide.
10:08 PM
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Anyway life isn't that bad 'cos I don't think I have to drop subject after all. I'm shocked actually. I was already expecting to drop chem and kind of shut myself off from it. Guess I'll have to spend my hols catching up on that or I'll really be dead next year. Won't be surprised if I got a U or something for it.
The turnout in school yesterday was truly pathetic. Was generally planning to be a good girl and stay the whole day but in the end got influenced to skip econs tutorial and pe when I realized that no one was going to turn up. Ended up at the Bishan swimming pool with Shuhui and PK more suntanning than swimming. But I frankly think it was more beneficial than going through case study.
Gotta go... and spend the rest of the weekend with a nice bright orange file.
11:23 AM
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